But then came the afternoon with bird watching, prayer and meditation. Now don't think I'm all spiritual. I'm just an average person with a faith I cling to, I rejoice in and I am so grateful for.
Last weekend my sweet husband raked up the fallen leaves and made my backyard look beautiful. I set out seed in high feeders for the birds who are trying to make it through the winter's low temps. Then, lo and behold, there were actually robins in our backyard! This is huge for us! We get doves, pigeons and sparrows - but robins! That was cause to celebrate! Imagine the joy that coursed through my depressed and discouraged heart when I saw them! My little flame of faith began to glow with an even brighter light.
I prayed and let the Lord know how tired I was of trying, of fighting, of advocating for myself. And you know what my good friend, my advocate who controls all things said to me? He said, "You're not quitting, you're standing. There's a difference. You have been fighting, advocating and trying. You've been so busy that you forgot to let go and let God. Just stand now, stand in faith."